I Am Available

Our electric fireplace illuminating our townhome’s living room. The sharp, winter wind howling against the sliding glass doors to my right. Our toddler preparing her place on the couch with her stuffed animals and blanket. Our infant and my wife asleep in the other room.

Most mornings, I like to flip on Sportscenter to catch up on the games the night before, that morning started like many others. Until, I felt the urge to turn off the TV and just have some worship music playing while we welcomed in a new day.

A familiar song begins to fill the air and when the bridge hit, it felt as if my heart became covered in a weighted blanket. A weight that was comforting and welcoming to another divine appointment.

A reminder of identity and hope.

The bridge goes like this…

Here I am, here I am
You can have it all, You can have it all
Here I am, here I am
You can have it all, You can have it all
Here I am, here I am
And You can have it all, You can have it all
Here I am, here I am
You can have it all, You can have it all
Here I am, here I am
You can have it all, You can have it all
Here I am, here I am
You can have it all, You can have it all

This simple phrase repeated six times, but it could have been a hundred. These words transformed the townhome living room into a chapel. These words were not new to me. I’ve sang these words numerous times, but this morning was different.

These words not only transformed our living room, but it transported my heart and mind as well.

In my life, I have always battled the idea of being good enough. Questioning if I am even worth anyone knowing or involving me in their lives. I have asked myself “what do I have to offer to anyone?” more times than I could possibly count.

Maybe you have asked this question too. I’m with you.

I don’t have any profound, life-altering golden nugget for you to tweet or tattoo. All I have is what I felt God speak to my heart that morning.

“I don’t need you to HAVE it all, I just want you to BRING it all.”

If I had it all, what would I need God for? If I lacked nothing, where would faith enter in? If I was perfect, why would Christ need to die?

It wasn’t about HAVING it all, it was for me to BRING it all.

It was just coming before the Lord saying, “Here I am, Lord. Whatever You ask, I want to say ‘yes’.”

Too often, we have this belief that we are useless unless we have incredible influence. Or possibly that our value is based on other’s evaluation. But the truth is not about having it all, but our willingness to bring it all.

The song goes on to say, “I am available.”

This is my new morning mantra. Every day, I will tell the Lord, “I am available.”

It’s nothing profound. It’s just a simple posture of surrender.

Whatever may come, wherever I may go, whomever I meet, I want to be available for what God wants to do.

Our world needs Christians to embrace this posture. Avoid the desire to accomplish our own agendas, and making ourselves available to what God will call us to.

Will you join me in saying, “God, I am available”?

If so, comment below, “I am available.” Let’s see what God can do with our “yes.”